The Grasping

It’s happening again. When I’m convinced that only one thing will save me, will bring me the stability I crave so much, I grasp. I grasp like a person drowning in the deep, dark ocean with no land in sight, desperately reaching out so that I can stop myself from going under. Except I should…

5 great things about not going to work

I’m getting seriously worried about never being able to find a job ever again (What? I’ll have you know no one has EVER called me a drama queen before). But then a friend was like, come on, try and be grateful for the time off so there you go. Here are the five things I’m…

The mythical Thule – how strong is your imagination?

There’s a small exhibition at the British Library about Seeking the Northwest Passage – why Europeans have been driven to explore the fabled Northwest Passage. An ancient Greek geographer described the regions beyond Britain as the mythical Thule (pronounced Thoolay): “… those regions in which there was no longer any proper land nor sea nor…

Shrove Tue pancakes and dreams

I love pancakes. That’s what I really love about the US – their fluffy, light pancakes. Having said that, I had some mean European crepe style pancakes in Neuremberg and a friend (food nutrition specialist, A), made us some lovely crepey-pancakes two weekends ago. The funny thing is, today pancakes get elevated from just a…

The endurance of boredom

Everytime I practice dance now, my thoughts start going towards editing. Basically thinking how to make it more dramatic and less boring. How to snip out all the boring parts. I would never tell my teacher this though. For her, the structure of each piece is set and if you are dancing bharathanatyam, it’s your…

What do you not want to do now?

I’ve been thinking about some of the worst advice out there and one of it definitely has to be “you need to know what you want in order to get it.” Obviously there’s truth in this. But the problem is that it is not very constructive at times when you don’t know what you want….

No one saves us but ourselves

“No one saves us but ourselves. We alone must walk the path” the Buddha It so brutal in it’s honesty and scary. I really don’t think I’m qualified to save myself. I don’t even think I’m qualified to be an adult but that’s another matter altogether. ┬áSurely, there must be a clause that if you…

Dealing with uncertainty

So we’re nearly 10 days into January and I can’t wait to move on to Feb already. I hate Januarys. I think it’s a miserable month, especially in London. Leading up to Christmas as it gets dark and cold outside, it’s cute. But two months in, you’ve had enough. At least I’ve had enough. I…

Hello 2015, I’m scared

Now 2015 is here. And to be honest, I’m scared. Taking a break was great but I told myself that I need to start getting my act together in 2015.

Joy, despair and gloom

It’s Christmas carol time and I went along to Church yesterday to support a friend who was part of the carol service. In between the carols, the Rev spoke. Something he said stayed with me, something along the lines of – God wants us to be joyful and not full of despair and gloom. Maybe…

Yes, I hate to salsa

I’m a serial dabbler. I’ve tried out many, many things. I’ve dabbled in pottery, learnt to play the guitar, I took up salsa, flower decorating, etc. I always entertain the most idealistic thoughts when I first start these activities – I’ll do salsa and I’ll discover that I’m a great dancer and I’ll travel the…

Reminder to self – the world is big

This is the shot of earth from China’s spacecraft as it went about the far side of the moon. I’ve only seen the earth like this in pictures and when you see it with the moon as a focal point, it really reverses your perspective. When I stumble on things like this, it reminds me…